He doesn’t fight back. He doesn’t try to yank his arm free. No, he almost holds completely still, when Cas manhandles him and lets him uncover his arm, see the mark, see him. And what he has become. And that expression on his face. It’s almost indecipharable, because there are so many layers. There’s annoyance and anger and defeat, but also something like understanding and sadness. Something that says “Yes, I know… it might have been stupid”, but that’s what I derserve. That deep breath he takes before he opens his eyes again. Eyes that shift so fast from showing deep desperation and wanting to be saved to sadness to completely empty, hardened, ~dead. He’s so tired, so worn down. He just wants it all to be over. A means to an end. Or should we say a means to his end…
And Cas with his powers, and with his depth of understanding of a man he pieced back together bit by bit, saw that all …all those layers of complexity mixed with self hate and depression.. saw how deep the wounds and the darkness went..saw despite his best efforts the man he thought he’d rescued from hell and made whole was making his way back there…was there already in a sense, was in pain and torment here on earth, and had kept it hidden deliberately.
No wonder he said “Damn it Dean.”
I love all this analysis, but I have to hijack this post and say that it kind of amazes me that after seeing Dean like this, Cas would choose not to go back to the bunker with them and try to help Dean through this. So many times Cas has given up everything to help Dean and now, when he can clearly see how much Dean needs his help (the Mark of Cain might as well be a neon sign screaming it to the world), he chooses to continue with his quest to reopen heaven instead.
I actually thought the same and have come to a pretty basic assumption as a result… whatever Cas is actually doing as he gathers his Bretheran most likely involves the only way he’s aware of to save Dean. Cas is pursuing a cure… one its likely he knows is only accessible from Heaven. That’s the most likely reason he tore all that stuff of his motel room wall. Because he has new priorities involving a new plan.
Yes, that is exactly my thinking as well. That Cas now has one more reason to find a way back into heaven. It’s not just about wanting to help his brothers and sisters anymore, which was a personal quest already, but now I think it might be an even more emotional motivation: he wants to find a way to save the man, he raised from perdition once more.
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